Sadness consumes me like i don’t even know. I hate myself sometimes. I wanna be gone cause sometimes it feels peoples lives would be better. I just hate how I have been feeling lately. Why can’t I be happy like everyone else. Why can’t I see the bright side of things. Maybe I don’t deserve it. Maybe I’m not suppose to feel those things. Love, Happiness, Peacefulness, The things that give people hope for another day. I don’t get to feel those things, and I wish I could. Have you ever thought of taking your own life? I have. Have you ever thought it would be so easy to do? Have you ever taken the blade and put it to your wrist and think just one swipe and I can feel better. I have thought about it, but I can never bring myself to do it. It’s not that I want to die. I just want to feel something, whether it’s pain, or something else. Sometimes when people take every little thing I do and point them out and criticize me I just start to believe them. I had a friend that used to say I was anorexic, but I wasn’t. Maybe I should be. Maybe I can feel something that way. I don’t know what made me start to feel this way, or when I started to feel like this, but I’m feeling and I don’t know when it will leave. I feel like no one would understand. #foreveralone
I am like:
It keeps getting better and better every time I play it and I go like:
After a month, they play it on the radio and I am like:
I hear people singing it on the street and I look at them like
When I hear someone singing it with a wrong lyrics I am like
Then my friend approaches me to ask me if I’ve heard of that song he goes like
Feeling disappointed of him not being updated, I am like:
so true!
